Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Remembering Our First


Today is Infant and Pregnancy Loss Awareness Day. 
I wrote a few years ago about our first pregnancy, one that did not end as beautifully as Declan's.
 It was short-lived, but filled with dreams and excitement and hopes and love. 
Our little Juan Carlos. 
Our bittersweet miracle after months of trying. 

Tonight I light a candle, remember those weeks, and hold that sweet lost baby in my heart. 

(It's wordy and not well proofed, but was much needed to heal.)


LIVE THE MURRAYED LIFE

11 comments:

  1. Sending you love and prayers today!

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  2. I didn't know you lost a baby, Christina... made me tear up. Lots of love... xo

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  3. So sorry for your loss! Thanks for sharing your story so honestly.

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  4. My heart. I've had a couple friends who lost their babies and it scares me so bad. We haven't started trying yet, and I can't begin to understand the love felt for a child, nor could I imagine the heart break of losing a baby during pregnancy.

    Love you. And your family- earthly and heavenly.

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  5. Thank you for sharing this story. My sister-in-law's first pregnancy didn't go very far either, and the whole family shared in that sadness. Somehow, it turned into a blessing and made room for my dear, sweet oldest nephew (with whom my SIL became pregnant about 6 months after losing baby #1). I also have a good friend who lost her first, but she is now the mother of beautiful little girl twins! I could sense the sadness and loneliness they felt, and that is why I admire when women share these stories- because it just might help feel another woman to feel less alone with the loss that she suffers.

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  6. You know, I remember when we first met I came to referenced post, and I didn't know what to see. Even now I don't. But how thankful I am that Declan made his way too you soon after, and another little one on the way, to mend the heart just that much more.

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  7. I'm so sorry. I had no idea that you've lost a baby, Bestie. I went back to read the post you referenced and I just admire you that much more now for how openly and honestly you shared your story. I'm so very glad that sweet Declan found his way to you- and now this precious little one on the way, too! Love and light and hugs to you and Peyton... <3

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  8. Christina....
    I had no idea that you lost a baby!! How very heartbreaking!! My Grandmother lost two of her children, but she met them. Aunt Sandra and Uncle Paul Michael. As a single woman who has never carried, much less lost, any children, I cannot imagine the horrific pain. It never truly goes away, a friend who lost her second born son once told me....
    --Hugs, Friend!!--
    --Raelyn

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  9. Sending positive thoughts over the ocean to you guys!

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  10. sending love and a big hug your way

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  11. Thank you for posting the link, I think you're being a bit hard on yourself about the writing. It was beautiful and incredibly moving. Thinking of you and your beautiful family! *Hugs*

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